Ceejaythe630th 2024-08-15 03:43:22

I am aware that I am very late to responding to this, but I have had this tab open for too long just to say nothing on this, so here is something to remember if you ever feel down on Valentine's Day again:

You'd be wrong to think that people don't love you. Even before this was posted, you have amassed a pretty large following as far as small accounts go. You even had some connections with some of the more popular small accounts at the time (you probably still do, but I was living under a rock since February, so things may have changed), which established how strong your relations with other people are. Your follower count has also grown to almost 100 since the last time I have check this profile (before I think it was around 60 or 70 followers I believe), and to put it into perspective, that is about 3 United States classrooms worth of people that follow you for the stuff you make and the person you are. Whether most of these people are following for one reason or another, you are clearly doing something right to retain this impressive follower count for this long, especially in a small site like Newgrounds.

Remember this important thing about Valentine's Day that I have been preaching to people long before my absence: It is a day to celebrate any and all forms of love, from friendships, family relationships, and more, not just all of the usual Soulmate stuff that gets popularized. I do not blame people for being down on this day all-year-round, as this holiday has become more and more flanderized in recent years. A similar thing can be applied to life in general, if you try to base your entire life on love and finding a soulmate, then chances are you would only end up miserable and the journey would be a rough one. If you put all of that aside and focus on other aspects of life and start having different goals in mind, then life becomes more bearable and realistic, the same thing can be applied to friends. Life can be pretty lonely and hard if you face everything by yourself, that is where making friends can come in handy. With Soulmates, you only ever get one of those, but with friends, you can have as many as you want while establishing strong enough connections for you to trust them and let them help you face your problems on an easier scale. With friends (or just about anyone in general) you are able to understand them and they are able to understand you, and communication feels so much nicer when a group of people are able to understand each other.

As for you calling yourself "a pain in the ass", I believe that the follower count says otherwise. If you were truly "a pain in the ass", then chances are that you will not be where you are today if you had the same behavior used to describe yourself here. It may not look like it sometimes, but there are people out there that care about you, even though it is not directly shown. In fact, that is why you have retained your followers for this long, they actually care about you. If they didn't, they would have left you a long time ago, you wouldn't have the follower count you have today, and I wouldn't be writing this months later at the dead of night. If you were to kill yourself, people would obviously be distraught over this, so if you ever feel like you are in a bad place, take a breather and look back at how far you have come in life, and look at all of the friends and fans you made along the away. They all admire you, so keep fighting for yourself and for them, and never let the darkness take a hold of you.

All in all, love in general is important, but it becomes a toxic thing if you only seek romantic love. In life you may never even have the chance to get a real lover, so be thankful for the love and support you receive from friends, family, and other people that genuinely care about you (this is something I have come to terms with after discovering it on my own). Do not forget about loving yourself too. The more you are rough with yourself, the more you start to despise who you are as a person, it starts slow but eventually builds up. So please, go easy on yourself. There is only so much one person can handle before they eventually start breaking down.

You are probably feeling better already, but this is just something to keep in mind for the future. Good luck with whatever life may throw at you, we will be here to help you every step of the way.